Just when I thought I got a few ducks lined up, my entire world collapses. Today was a day of worst news ever. I found out that my sponsor was retiring, a person I assumed was a confidant and mentor threw me clean under a bus; I realized that my efforts to support an entire organization has been all for naught, and I have no idea where I can go from here.
On the other hand, I created a mentoring plan, I was asked to perform the wedding of two good people (albeit a last resourt); I have 2 preaching event coming up, I have a good chance of getting into Leadership Memphis Fast Track; I’m on trace for reading my book; I’ve started my mentoring sessions with BW; the IIOF is going swimmingly well;
So why does all this seem so off kilter...because I am peopled out. I cant stand them anymore. No one cares about me. No one respects me. No on respects me and I am a non-factor. I just want to go away and make everyone ever stop talking to me.
Tuesday, April 16, 2019
Thursday, April 11, 2019
Give It Time
The Bible tells us in Ecclesiastes 9:11
“I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all.”
This is a testament that we should respect every generation of God’s creation. We must respect the slow in the race, the weak in battle, the breadless wise, the rich who lack understanding, and the skillful men who have no favor. Because in time, something about them will change. We won’t know when, how, or by what means but the time will come when there is a chance happening and the lives of the people of God will change.
In time, there will come a chance for the race to be in the hands of the swift; they will run and not get weary;
In time, there will be a chance for the strong to challenge and be challenged in battle and victory will be theirs;
In time, there will be a chance for wise to have bread; they will be fed the body of Christ and will know the truth as Wisdom knew it in the beginning;
In time, there will be a chance when men of understanding will be rich and there will be nothing missing, nothing lacking, and nothing broken; for they will have understanding in how to use their wealth for good;
And finally, there will be a time when the chance will be that the skillful will find favor and the work of the hands of the builder will create monuments of memorials to the God of our faith, country, head, heart, and hand.
The other way you can interpret this text is to say that no matter what you think you are or what you think you have now, keep living...it’ll soon be gone because over time, things grow old and they dissipate. Don’t rush to the end...it’ll be here soon enough.
Grace & Peace be unto you...
QTS
“I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all.”
This is a testament that we should respect every generation of God’s creation. We must respect the slow in the race, the weak in battle, the breadless wise, the rich who lack understanding, and the skillful men who have no favor. Because in time, something about them will change. We won’t know when, how, or by what means but the time will come when there is a chance happening and the lives of the people of God will change.
In time, there will come a chance for the race to be in the hands of the swift; they will run and not get weary;
In time, there will be a chance for the strong to challenge and be challenged in battle and victory will be theirs;
In time, there will be a chance for wise to have bread; they will be fed the body of Christ and will know the truth as Wisdom knew it in the beginning;
In time, there will be a chance when men of understanding will be rich and there will be nothing missing, nothing lacking, and nothing broken; for they will have understanding in how to use their wealth for good;
And finally, there will be a time when the chance will be that the skillful will find favor and the work of the hands of the builder will create monuments of memorials to the God of our faith, country, head, heart, and hand.
The other way you can interpret this text is to say that no matter what you think you are or what you think you have now, keep living...it’ll soon be gone because over time, things grow old and they dissipate. Don’t rush to the end...it’ll be here soon enough.
Grace & Peace be unto you...
QTS
Thursday, April 4, 2019
I said no!
So the question of the day is how many times does God have to say no before the desire is out of your system.
This is the experience of some who believe (for whatever reason) that there is something about the fire of the desire that cannot be put out. Waters cannot quench the thirst and the thirst is real. Every effort is met with rejection; so much so that the rejection is just ignored. No matter how hard the try, success seems an impossibility. The hope is never to personalize relationships but for the drive to do the work that the heart knows will make that part of the world a better way than when it was found. It’s a desire that won’t move or shift. Is God saying, “No” - period; point blank? Is God saying, “No” - not that one; I’ll let you know when to move; stop going ahead of me. I got this.
When you can’t hear and you can’t figure it out; when rejection is ho hum; when no matter what you don’t quit. How do you not lose your confidence? How do you not believe that something in the universe has it out for you? How do you not believe that you haven’t been blacklisted? Why can’t the walking away just happen and release everyone from the hostage of explaining why the no is the no?
That’s all for today
#behaviormatters
#sick&tiredofbeingsick&tired
This is the experience of some who believe (for whatever reason) that there is something about the fire of the desire that cannot be put out. Waters cannot quench the thirst and the thirst is real. Every effort is met with rejection; so much so that the rejection is just ignored. No matter how hard the try, success seems an impossibility. The hope is never to personalize relationships but for the drive to do the work that the heart knows will make that part of the world a better way than when it was found. It’s a desire that won’t move or shift. Is God saying, “No” - period; point blank? Is God saying, “No” - not that one; I’ll let you know when to move; stop going ahead of me. I got this.
When you can’t hear and you can’t figure it out; when rejection is ho hum; when no matter what you don’t quit. How do you not lose your confidence? How do you not believe that something in the universe has it out for you? How do you not believe that you haven’t been blacklisted? Why can’t the walking away just happen and release everyone from the hostage of explaining why the no is the no?
That’s all for today
#behaviormatters
#sick&tiredofbeingsick&tired
Wednesday, June 27, 2018
#behaviormatters
Well, in all honesty, I’m surprised this blog is still up and active with two followers; so I’ll take advantage of the opportunity.
Lately, I’ve posted several quips under the tag #behaviormatters. I keep getting (by the mercy of God) the same three things in my mind: your behavior matters, you have matters regarding your behavior that may need internal investigation, and the character of God. I keep thinking that I just don’t have the time and capacity to study these things but I don’t have the luxury of ignoring them. I want to spend the time in the research. Life is complicated.
The character of God alone is a broad, very broad scope. I wonder if I can ever get to it to the depth at which I believe God is directing me. What is there to know, in what order, to what end?
I would that all people be human-kind.
I would that all people be human-being.
I would that all people be human.
Let your soul rest. Don’t just talk about it. The songwriter brought “it is well with my soul” out of the wells of his being mocking the enemy within that would have killed him otherwise. Don’t plagiarize his words in a feeble attempt to mask topical, self-invoked hurt.
Ask yourself - How is it with my soul? To thine own self be true in your response.
Grace & Peace
BFV-ED
Lately, I’ve posted several quips under the tag #behaviormatters. I keep getting (by the mercy of God) the same three things in my mind: your behavior matters, you have matters regarding your behavior that may need internal investigation, and the character of God. I keep thinking that I just don’t have the time and capacity to study these things but I don’t have the luxury of ignoring them. I want to spend the time in the research. Life is complicated.
The character of God alone is a broad, very broad scope. I wonder if I can ever get to it to the depth at which I believe God is directing me. What is there to know, in what order, to what end?
I would that all people be human-kind.
I would that all people be human-being.
I would that all people be human.
Let your soul rest. Don’t just talk about it. The songwriter brought “it is well with my soul” out of the wells of his being mocking the enemy within that would have killed him otherwise. Don’t plagiarize his words in a feeble attempt to mask topical, self-invoked hurt.
Ask yourself - How is it with my soul? To thine own self be true in your response.
Grace & Peace
BFV-ED
Friday, January 1, 2016
What Does Being a Woman Mean To You...
I recently decided to pose a few questions on the Total Woman page. There's no rhyme or reason; it's just for discussion (after all, this is a blog space). So my question is for women/ladies only:
What does being a woman mean to you?
My answer: for me, being a woman is to symbolize the feminine essence of God. When I imagine what God looks like, I envision an all-powerful, spiritual Diety that understands what I go through as a person who is emotional, nurturing, and classy.
So now you say...
What does being a woman mean to you?
My answer: for me, being a woman is to symbolize the feminine essence of God. When I imagine what God looks like, I envision an all-powerful, spiritual Diety that understands what I go through as a person who is emotional, nurturing, and classy.
So now you say...
Sunday, December 27, 2015
It's Only One Day
I am one of the people who thoroughly rave about my birthday -- which, by the way, is May 15th. I have a policy that it is the only day out of the year that I get to do for me, about me, around me, and I do not feel guilty about it. After all, it's only one day, right?
So if I take this perspective about my own birthday, why shouldn't Jesus? If we are blessed to have 365, why can we not give Jesus this one day (December 25) to celebrate Jesus' birth?
What's troubling for me around this subject is that not only does Jesus NOT get the one day, but people become severely depressed. So much so that it's become a "thing" that doctors have defined. So are people so self-absorbed that we can't give Jesus only one day? It would be one thing to be so selfish that we don't acknowledge the day of Jesus' birth; it is another to allow that selfishness to manifest into something that causes a breakdown for us.
Essentially, all I'm saying is that it's only one day. One day to say "Thank You"; one day to say "I appreciate you"; one day to be grateful for the previous 364 days and the upcoming 364 days. Remember, it's the same day each year so let the love start today (Dec 27, 2015) so on Dec 25 in 2016, if God allows you to see it, celebrate the day and be gracious in your gift-giving. Give the free gifts of love, joy, peace, long suffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, and temperance. You have these in you and giving them away blesses you as much as it does the one to whome you are extending it. How does that work? Great question: you see, "inasmuch as you have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, you have done it unto me..." (Matt 25:40). Just do what Jesus did and that is the best birthday gift you can give to God.
#justoneday
#only24hours
#overatmidnight
#youstillhavetime
Monday, December 21, 2015
Getting Back in the Game
I recently visited the Total Woman's blog page and was sorely disappointed in myself. I hadn't posted anything since February 2011. I thought, what a slacker!
So why so long between then and now? School...work...church; all in the name of coming back to this -- my dream. Talk about a dream deferred.
Well, I have challenged myself to put BFV and the TWOV back on the map! Not just in my heart and head but in the hearts and hands of all who were there from the beginning. BFV faded away and let you all move on. That was not a good thing.
On a lighter now, progress has been made. I received my undergrad in Business Administration from the University of Phoenix in July 2012 and began my Master of Divinity program at Memphis Theological Seminary. That journey is still in progress BUT it has been the most fulfilling, interesting, life-changing, game changing experience ever! I'll tell you about it later.
As I continue to pursue that degree, I came up with this idea and what better place to post my idea than on my blog - right? I became interested in becoming a life coach/spiritual coach. That will not be deferred, I'll just have to start that when I'm done with seminary. But in the meantime, I thought, why not use my blog to delve into the mind. I began writing questions; whichever ones came to mind and I'm going to answer them with as much earnest integrity as I can. I'm hoping to draw some attention to the topic, solicit feedback, and pull some professionals in to evaluate the questions and maybe bear a little bit of their own souls.
Either way, I want to raise BFV back to a conversation and ultimately pull the TWOVs out of the wood works to manifest a community of women who change the trajectory for others (regardless of their age). I've been on a roller coaster ride over the past 4 years and I'm ready to get off and put some boots on the ground.
Join me...I'll be poking you on Facebook so you can meet me here in a more open forum.
Grace & Peace
QTS
So why so long between then and now? School...work...church; all in the name of coming back to this -- my dream. Talk about a dream deferred.
Well, I have challenged myself to put BFV and the TWOV back on the map! Not just in my heart and head but in the hearts and hands of all who were there from the beginning. BFV faded away and let you all move on. That was not a good thing.
On a lighter now, progress has been made. I received my undergrad in Business Administration from the University of Phoenix in July 2012 and began my Master of Divinity program at Memphis Theological Seminary. That journey is still in progress BUT it has been the most fulfilling, interesting, life-changing, game changing experience ever! I'll tell you about it later.
As I continue to pursue that degree, I came up with this idea and what better place to post my idea than on my blog - right? I became interested in becoming a life coach/spiritual coach. That will not be deferred, I'll just have to start that when I'm done with seminary. But in the meantime, I thought, why not use my blog to delve into the mind. I began writing questions; whichever ones came to mind and I'm going to answer them with as much earnest integrity as I can. I'm hoping to draw some attention to the topic, solicit feedback, and pull some professionals in to evaluate the questions and maybe bear a little bit of their own souls.
Either way, I want to raise BFV back to a conversation and ultimately pull the TWOVs out of the wood works to manifest a community of women who change the trajectory for others (regardless of their age). I've been on a roller coaster ride over the past 4 years and I'm ready to get off and put some boots on the ground.
Join me...I'll be poking you on Facebook so you can meet me here in a more open forum.
Grace & Peace
QTS
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